Date: 7.28.2008  Time: 23:00:00

Since I haven't really slept the past few weeks, I've had lots of time to watch movies in bed while trying to sleep. I saw one last night that I think may have become my favorite movie ever. It is called Cashback, and is about an art student who, as he explains it, experiences both extreme definitions of the word crush. Go watch it, it may well change your life.

Another movie that I really liked was a documentary called I Remember Me. This struck me on a personal level, because it is about the misunderstandings of and details about CFIDS. About a year ago, one of my doctors told me I had this (rather common in NCS patients). I didn't think anything of it, because it sounded kinda lame (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome? Surely that's psychological!). Apparently not, and it really sucks. Thankfully, mine isn't as bad as some of the people in this movie.

Starting to prepare for my annual pilgrimage to Las Vegas for Defcon. That's it for now. Time to try and get some sleep. Try.

Date: 7.20.2008  Time: 04:20:00

Death has a way of trailing me along the way. It seems as though I'm just bad luck or something. I've lost another that was close. Within moments of his final breath, I placed my hand on his still chest and said goodbye. I wish I knew where he went.

I've not been sleeping well the past few weeks. I can't remember the last time I didn't hear birds before losing awareness.

My eyes have worsened - more spots are appearing. Sometimes it actually startles me.

Why do all religions believe they have it right? What makes a person believe what they're told more than what they've experienced?

I miss dirt roads and getting lost in the woods.

all these years
you've been speaking without breathing
spinning closer to the sun
you had your way with an unsuspecting public
little threads are all it takes